NeenjaBiscuit

Alright.

So here's the skinny:

I've been seriously slacking in allowing my imagination to roam as free as I'd like over the past number of months, maybe even years it feels like. I've such a want and a drive to take writing/photography seriously, yet keep having my time eaten away by work.

Yes, I have a job now, and have since April, actually. I'm really enjoying it, oddly enough. Wondering what it is yet? Maybe in a half-interested way. I'm doing Social Work (never thought I'd say that, honestly) essentially determining whether or not low income single parents/families are eligible to receive subsidized daycare. In a nutshell, I'm a pencil pusher. Although a lot if it is phone calls, which if you knew me at all know I tend to despise. I used to refuse to call pizza places to order just because it meant I had to make a phone call. Pretty sad, huh? Well, not anymore. I'm making around 30 to 50 calls a day, answering a bit here and there, along with lots of data entry.

Sound boring yet? It's not, at least not to me. I don't love it, but I enjoy the people I'm working with. Granted I am the youngest person in the building by literally about 10 years, with maybe a few exceptions. I've always had an old soul, but I like to think I bring a bit of life to that place.

So that's what has been on my plate for the past seven months or so. 8-5, Mon-Fri. 40 hrs a week. Weekends have been bars, bars, bars. For the most part, I've been making sure to have some lazy days in there as well, actually just beat Fallout: New Vegas the other day. (almost 40 hrs of total play time, I actually enjoyed it a lot more than Fallout 3, surprisingly)

Oh, and I've been working out. While I may have always convinced myself I would go or just said that I wanted to, now I actually am. Let me tell you something about it too; it feels fucking amazing. I have a chest now. My arms have actually grown with some decent amount of mass. I have longer endurance, and I'm only working out harder each time I go. Routine is a good thing, don't be fooled by others who think it's boring and repetitive, it's good to be sporadic, but routine can kick ass too.

Anyways, I'll hit this up later. Maybe even tonight. I need to go make some shrimp tacos for dinner (and for a pot luck lunch tomorrow at work) and then head over to the gym after that.

I'll tell you in another life when we are both cats...

The search continues!...

I'm not sure how exciting that is. We'll see.

Been actually adding on to a small story of mine, liking how it's coming out so far. Which usually doesn't happen very often, if at all. It's nice to begin writing things again, even if it's not necessarily all amazing. Let's just say I have rather high standards and for some reason. Speaking of writing, I watched a movie recently that had to do with that, and was quite a surprise at how well-written/hilarious it was. Was a random flick I decided the plot sounded worthy of giving a gander, and glad I did. It's called Skills Like This, and like very oh so few writers these days, it actually stars the writer. One of my favorites that's ever done that, most of you probably haven't heard of, Yahoo Serious. He made a few movies back in the 90's that were down right cheeky and funny, but without being too childish.

I'd recommend anyone that enjoys good writing and some off key humor to give Skills Like This a chance. It's hard to find well-written anything these days, let alone a movie.

Other than that, life's about the same. Keep my chin up best as I can, try to get some resemblance of a routine going so the days don't blur together. And it seems I've underestimated the amount of peace one get from a coffee shop, even if it's a popular one. I'm not a fan of crowded coffee shops, nor coffee for that matter, but I ordered some fancy drink, sat down by myself and had an enjoyable time.

Until next time, maktub.

So I've been searching for a new job for a week now, no progress as of yet, but then again applying for jobs is a rather long process. Tedious. Thankfully I have a great amount of patience, but some days it wears thinner than others.

On a side note I'm doing my damndest to get my shit together by being more organized, having a cleaner room, exercising more, just being all around more productive. Not necessarily because I want to, but because it seems more of a necessity at this stage in my life. In an unstable world, I must create my own stability and routine in life.

And as you can see, I uploaded a bit of my writing. A lot of it is old as I haven't written anything of much significance as of late because of being busy with work, and I honestly haven't felt nearly as inspired as I used to. Not for a long while. It usually takes some form of epiphany or extremely tired state of mind that will allow me some form of substantial writing.

More to come, possibly.

Well, I got fired on Thursday. Didn't get a real reason as to why, just that "Yeah, *bosses-name-here* decided today's your last day". So much for thinking I'd have enough money to go and buy a shiny new SLR. Well, I could...but then I wouldn't have any money to last me more than through the end of the month. Instead I'll keep it and have another good two months to find a new job...

I'm glad I don't plan too far ahead of myself, 'cause frankly it's useless to think you have that much control over life. All you really have control over is yourself and your choices. Thas' about it.

Needless to say, it's back to the grind-stone for me then. Took me 6 months to find a job last time, now I have half that time before I run out of money. So, hooray.

So I finally have money to buy a shiny new SLR. Still researching a bit as to which I'd like. So far I think after a week or two worth of researching has helped me narrow it down to three: the Olympus PEN, the Nikon D5000, and the Rebel Xsi. All are about the same megapixel-wise, only slightly different here and there. So far though, I think I'm leaning towards the Nikon because I've heard way too many great reviews, and loads of friends pictures who come out quite lovely with'm. The PEN though looks pretty slick and easy to use, which is good for me 'cause I'm still such a damn amateur at photography, don't get to spend nearly as much time on it as I want. Work all day and by the time I get home it's dark...bah.

Anyways. Going to start writing again, or at least attempt to. Getting out more to a few coffee shops for alone time to read and such.

More to come.

Oh, and a great quote I read (currently reading On The Road by Kerouac) "Boys and girls in America have such a sad time together; sophistication demands that they submit to sex immediately without proper preliminary talk. Not courting talk--real straight talk about souls, for life is holy and every moment is precious." - Kerouac